Breastfeeding

By the title you can figure out what this post will be about.  If the title makes you uncomfortable than I just advice you to ignore this post. 

I can't rememeber if I ever mentioned this topic before but early on Peanut and I struggled with this.  It took 3-4 weeks before I didn't want to cry every time she latched on.  I struggled through it trying desperately to get through it knowing it would be beneficial to my baby.  Now that I made it through I love it. Its personal time to continue to bond with my Peanut.  I was also able to produce a lot of milk in the beginning.  No, not a lot, and insane amount.  There were a few times I could pump close to 20 ounces AFTER feeding her. Even though I have a lot of milk stored away I don't want to stop breastfeeding.  Like I mentioned before I enjoy it.  Since going back to work I've noticed a dramatic drop.  It's so hard to do something you want to do but your body doesn't want to cooperate with your ideas.  For the first time this weekend I didn't have enough to make my baby happy.  It broke my heart that she was getting so frustrated becuase she wasn't getting what she wanted from me.  I had to heat up a bottle to finally make her happy.  This wasn't just one occurance.  If it was one I might be able to handle it a little better thinking it was just a fluke.  However it happened a few times in a row.  I was hoping to make it the whole year with feeding her breastmilk and not having to do any formula.  The way my supply is dropping I'm worried I won't be able to do this much longer for her, and it hurts my heart.  I know whatever happens happens.  And I know I have done a lot for her already, doesn't make it any easier if you have a plan and it doesn't work.  Doesn't make it any easier that I love breastfeeding and I might not be able to make it as long as I wanted. This all makes me sad, but I'm not going to go down without trying my hardest to bring my supply back up.  No matter how much extra work it makes for me.

                   She is just so darn cute!!!


-Mama Lucas

Where has time gone

So its been a little bit since I have been on here.  My apologies.  There has been a lot that has happened in the past few weeks.  To sum it up short, week 2 of back to work I decided to take my last day of the week off and hang out with my baby girl.  Week three day 2 I end up taking her in to the Dr to check for pink eye (none thank goodness).  When texting the daycare lady, M, I find out that one of the other kids had lice.  Awesome.  So I end up staying home with Peanut the rest of the week.  Made it through week 4 of work and am almost done with week 5.  Peanut seems to like the daycare lady, she smiles bunches at her when I drop her off.  Makes me feel good and sad at the same time.  


We went to 2 Twins games where they won both.  I think Peanut might be a good luck charm.  The second Twins game we went to was on Mother's Day.  First one and I think it was a success.  We had a great day with Nana.  The weather was beautiful, couldn't have asked for a better day, well maybe a little less wind, but overall it was great.  

Mommy and Peanut on Mothers day

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Nana and Peanut

5' Piggy bank

Lastly our little Peanut is now 3 months old.  Where has this time gone.  I can't believe she is already 25% of the way to 1 year old.  She is getting so big.  She loves to talk now, its the cutest sound I've ever heard.  It is so great watching her grow and change every day.  She has also started to grab items.  Including my arm today, ouch. 

I'm 3 months?  ooooooo

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